I’m Just Waiting For Him to Find Out
About three and a half years ago, I thought my then-on-and-off boyfriend of five years and I were going to break up.
In that time, I met up with my married ex-boyfriend who I thought was getting divorced (he’d just learned his wife cheated on him) and just so happened to hook up in his car.
The ex later admitted that he’d planned it—I naively thought we were just going out for drinks and to chat, well, maybe fool around a bit, but I wasn’t planning to hook up with him.
It happened anyway, but I didn’t feel as bad as I could because I thought my boyfriend and I would be breaking up soon anyway. Since I thought my on-and-off-again boyfriend and I were breaking up, I told a bunch of people I banged my ex.
But then, married ex-boyfriend conveniently decided that secretly screwing me in his car was enough revenge and he didn’t need that divorce after all, and soon stopped talking to me again. But that was just the start of the nightmare.
After I realized the ex wasn’t leaving wifeypoo after all, I became TERRIFIED that my boyfriend would find out I hooked up with my ex. Suddenly, staying with him became all-important.
A couple years later, formerly on-and-off-boyfriend and I got married…Most of the wedding party (both his friends and mine) knew I’d cheated years before, but no one said anything to my husband.
I worry myself sick that he’ll find out. Some of my friends have said that it was years ago and that they think my husband wouldn’t be that upset if he found out now, but I think the fatal combo of (1) the ex in question (it’s a guy I’ve always been borderline obsessed with),
(2) that I kept the secret for so long and (3) that so many people know would throw my husband over the edge. I assume that if he ever finds out, the marriage is over…but I suspect that many people can’t keep a secret forever.
Sooner or later, someone’s going to say something, it’s just a question of when. And the darkest secret of all?
In hopes it’ll entice my husband into sticking around, I cook him amazing meals and get intimate whenever he wants to (including catering to any kinky whim, no matter how not into it I am).
He thinks I’m just a good wife…I’m actually just waiting for him to find out and get ready to dump me. Story credit: Reddit / ShesACheetah